8. Are you happy?

As some of you may know, I am a hobby writer. I write different kind of stories, from fanfiction to my very own ideas. Once, some conversation between random people came to me, so I wrote it down.

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- Are you happy?

- Would you be, if you were on the edge of a breakdown? If someone you love with all your heart left you in the middle of the biggest shit ever? If you had no one to talk to about this because they yell about what you’ve done wrong and judge you behind your back? Would you be happy knowing that your dreams will never come true because you’re too weak to fight with Goliath?

- There must be something that gives you happiness.

Her gaze went far away from the hospital walls. For a brief moment he saw her eyes shine seeing something he will never be able to see. The sparkle in her hazel irises disappeared for good the moment she turned her eyes on him.

- In fact, there is something that makes me happy.

- What is it?

- The same thing that reminds me about my helplessness and weakness.

- At least it gives you a moment of happiness.

- So what, if in the next moment it takes it away?

- You can change it, you just need a little effort.

Closing her eyes, she shook her head.

- I can’t change it.

- Why?

- Because I’m a coward. - She stared at him again and the honesty of what she had said turned into painful bodkin of anxiety perforating through his mind.

- You’re not a coward, you just need motivation.

Auburn hair shook in silent denial.

- I’m afraid of defeat and disappointment. - This time her gaze was empty, as if she was looking into her own inside. - I’m afraid of people… in fact, I hate them. One moment they talk to you and smile the most beautiful way you can imagine but the very moment you leave, they start talking shit about you.

They were silent. He was looking at her profile trying to understand what she had just shared with him.

- I hate myself for being human and doing all those things that I hate. I judge. I succumb to temptations. And I hurt my loved ones.

- It’s our nature.

- We fight with our nature by travelling on planes, wearing clothes or using new technology, so why we can’t fight with this? Because we are lazy and too weak. We are fools who don’t see their own mistakes and even when we do we choose to ignore them.

- Can you answer me one question? Why are you here?

- Here means where? Because I’m in the middle of nothing by my own free will, as if I want to be here, because by doing nothing I agree to be here, right?

- I was asking about the hospital. Why are you here?

- I’ve lost my faith. The faith in dreams…in God… in people. And in myself. I was too naive to have believed in them.

- Faith isn’t a bad thing.

- Until it rips your heart into pieces and deprives you of your soul.

- You haven’t lost your soul.

- No? So tell me then, why can’t I smile honestly? Why in — apparently — the most beautiful moments of my life my mouth is full of bitterness and the heart is full of sorrow?

- Because your expectations are too high.

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I found this very important, because not everyone is happy. Most of people only exist, because they are to afraid to start living life to the fullest potential. Small things should make us happy - that's how living begins.

'To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.' Oscar Wild

7. And the nominees are...

Every year, between December & February we can witness how dreams of talented actors come true. From The Critics Choice Awards to The Golden Globes. They are not only awards but signs of quality - actor's value. But there is only one statuette desired by everyone - The Oscar. Newborn actors always say that they dream to get this golden dude one day.

The 87th Annual Academy Awards will take place on Sunday, 22nd of February 2015. Who's going to be honored by the members of The Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences? Someone from the short list of nominated. 

Haven't seen most of nominated movies yet, but I hope that sooner of later it will change. Anyway, the nominees are...

Best Picture

“American Sniper”
“Birdman”
“Boyhood”
“The Grand Budapest Hotel”
“The Imitation Game”
“Selma”
“The Theory of Everything”
“Whiplash”

As soon as possible I need to watch "The Grand Budapest Hotel", "The Imitation Game" & "The Theory Of Everything".

Actor in a Leading Role

Steve Carell, “Foxcatcher”
Bradley Cooper, “American Sniper”
Benedict Cumberbatch, “The Imitation Game”
Michael Keaton, “Birdman”
Eddie Redmayne, “The Theory of Everything”

If I should choose one of these nominees for an Oscar, I would probably pick Benedict. Maybe he's an asshole, but very talented asshole, while Bradley Cooper for me is just a jealous asshole (still remember how he reacted last year for most of award-events, he was far from lose-with-honor face).

Actress in a Leading Role

Marion Cotillard, “Two Days, One Night”
Felicity Jones, “The Theory of Everything”
Julianne Moore, “Still Alice”
Rosamund Pike, “Gone Girl”
Reese Witherspoon, “Wild”

Hard choice. As much as I adore Julianne Moore, I know that Reese Witherspoon can be very convincing. 

Actor in a Supporting Role

Robert Duvall, “The Judge”

Ethan Hawke, “Boyhood”

Edward Norton, “Birdman”

Mark Ruffalo, “Foxcatcher”

J.K. Simmons, “Whiplash”

Edward Norton, Edward Norton, Edward Norton! Yep, that's my Oscar type here. Or maybe not. I don't like Ethan Hawke, but in movies, he's fantastic! & Robert Duvall is a class by himself.

Actress in a Supporting Role

Patricia Arquette in “Boyhood”
Laura Dern in “Wild”
Keira Knightley in “The Imitation Game”
Emma Stone in “Birdman or (The Unexpected Virtue of Ignorance)”
Meryl Streep in “Into the Woods”

I'm a huge fan of Meryl Streep, and I wouldn't mind she if gets another Oscar, but there is someone younger, but very talented. In my honest opinion, Emma Stone deserves an Oscar.


For the rest of the nominees you can visit oscar.go.com/nominees.
I can't wait for the 22nd of February to find out, who will take "the golden boy" home.